prepared meself.wash myself pretty clean.
planned out everything.
thought about the day before i close my eyes.
felt excited for everything.
close my eyes to sleep.
woke up, made a call.
OH NO!!!!!
God, why must it turn out like that?
why izzit everytime i planned out so nicely, it all turn out nothing?
did you plan it like that?
did you want it like that?
am i being that selfish brat again, when something goes wrong i grumble and failed to see you picture?
guess i know myself better then anyone....
i guess i really am...... 
A place to crash I got you
No need to ask
I got you
Just get on the phone
I got you
Come and pick you up if I have to
What’s weird about it
Is we’re right at the end
And mad about it
Just figured it out in my head
I’m proud to say
I got you
Go ahead and make me cry
I’ll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better for worse
I got you
hey, i got you...
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
just two more days to the end of 2009!!
don' you agree that time passes real fast!!!?
Things that i wanna give thanks to God:
1) for keeping me healthy without no major illness
2) for keeping my family safe and sound
3) for giving me friends around me in school to make me feel accepted
4) for giving me friends in church to encourage me when i feel like giving up in the things i've to do
5) for giving me a chance to serve as a CG leader
6) for a shelther to rest everyday
7) for the tears that rolled because its thru all these tears that i've learn that He was the one who was wiping it all for me
8) for His love
9) for you to be in my life
Things i DON'T WANT to bring forward to 2010:
1) my laziness in school work and projects
2) my laziness for not doing my QT EVERYDAY
3) my self-centeredness (don't wanna hurt people with this bad habit of mine)
yea...2009 is going away and yes!!
i am waiting for 2010 to come!! =]
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
i can't explain myself right now.
its amazing how God can speak to me so clearly through one movie!
sorry that i just run off so sudden....
but i just wanna let you guys know that i'm perfectly fine.....
just so over-whelmed that i dono what to say....
i am not person anyone should look up to.
not one person that anyone should learn from....
i've so many flaws and so self-centered.....
but its always through the grace of my Father that i can do all things.....
of it wasn't Him, i dono how and what i'll end up today.....
seriously!
and when you ask me to try and not be upset.....
i thought to meself.....
how can i cheer myself up when i feel like my whole world is full of rubbish that i threw in myself?
but, i'll still do it......for you.
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
i prayed for a special Christmas this year...
and God gave me one!
its one that i would never forget...
one that i'll always rmb its lesson behind it....
thank you for all the presents poeple...
and like what Melina sent me...."Big or small, I love them all!!"
but still, i think the most wonderful gift i've received (earthly)....
is your 11 words........
these 11 words, wrapped up nicely from your mouth which it's full of meaning and depth in it....
i'll never forget how how much you've willingly let go everything and just accept me...
thank you so much.....
i hope you enjoyed the cookie and that bottle...=]
but nonetheless, the best gift above all these gifts, is my Father's sacrificially love...
that love, is the most special love that no other love can replace....
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
things i'm thinking might not even be true;
things i'm feeling might be because i think too much;
but why wouldn't she let her know?
why keep it like its some top secret?
oh wells....................
God, clear my doubts soon.....its killing me!
sometimes its good to talk about the future and how we're gonna wait for its arrival.....but when we're waiting for it.....its somehow remind of you poeple of the past....and how much you wish they can witness all these with you....
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
before i start anything....check this two photos out!!! IT'S COOL STUFF!!!
alright!! i'm back from my 
UNLEASH CAMP and can finally find one day to slack at home!!thank God the camp was a pretty good success and its really heart-warming to see the yunger ones feel what i felt when i attended a leadership training camp few years back! =]
even as i stay home today and just slack my day off....
i just so glad how He managed to bring me thru this super tired, draining and difficult time!
even as i look back, i also learn and gain back many things thru this camp...
He is in control of all things.
straight after the camp, i was being revealed to things i never thought before about my identity.....
though i don have any evidence and it doesn't really matter if its true...
i'll be good if i know what's happening and what had happened....
God, i know You'll somehow answer all my queries in Your time.
congrats my friend, you finally made up your mind and followed your heart!
i'm so proud of you!!!
so no matter what happens, though sometimes we may feel unjust...
continue to pray bout it!! =]
be happy from now on!!!
somehow, after each and every battle, i've better equipped myself....
i really couldn'e sleep with peace when both is mad....
i can honestly say that all along was my wrong....
but for this you and me, i'll work all things out no matter what..
cause i know its you.
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
sometimes you don't need words to spell out everything.
sometimes just by feelings, you'll know that there's something there.
i know it.
and because of that, i am utterly disappointed with myself for failing your expectations of me.
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
sometimes i just don't understand. i don't understand what i'm thinking.i don't understand why i did all these.i don't understand why i always get back when things don't go my way.i don't understand why i am like that sometimes.i don't know why i just hate myself so much.i don't know why i'm disappointing people so much.i just don't know why.God, why?
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
things will seem even crazier for the next 15 days ahead....
MST in 3 days time.....
CAMP in 11 days....
still, i'm glad that He has pulled us through this far......
we can.....i know we all can......=]
woke up with a bad dream....
it totally freak me out!
a dream i would never want it to happen....yet
i really don wanna lose everything....
not so fast.........
maybe this is a lesson i've to learn through this dream....
to cherish everything and everyone around me before God decides to take them away from me....
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
i can't explain myself properly right now...
i'm getting agitated pretty easily.....
i've got a problem with myself....
i don't like the way i'm feeling....
i just can't seem to be happy....
it's like the feeling's gone.....
this world is really pulling me down down down.....
so much so that i feel so far from happiness.....
God, help me see what's wrong with me..
i'm so sorry that you have to suffer all these stuff from me...
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
if only i'm there now.........this week: preparing for my MST!!
next week: prepare for UNLEASH CAMP 2009!!
week after next: rush for PROJECTS!!
and the list goes on......
although there's so many things going on......i thought this year was pretty fulfilling!! =]
but somehow, along the walk of life....
disappointments of you and you on people just pop in and disrupt everything...
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
alright!! i'm back from my 
sometimes i just don't understand. i don't understand what i'm thinking.
if only i'm there now.........