started school at 1.30pm today...
thank God for the long sleep...
haven't had that for a long long time...
but this guilt have been following me everywhere for the past days...
So I sat down and 'indulge' myself into it....
I remembered some stories before I could really get in there.
So I remembered what I tell myself when I feel guilty to turn up the volume, so to speak, “It’s my own fault,” is a good one, and then I stumbled upon an old time favorite, “When I am truly myself I inevitably hurt the people I’m close to with my words and deeds.”
Having turned up the volume I noticed how my shoulders rose and I bent over.
Guilt, indeed, feels like a heavy burden.
when i sleep, it's there.... when i wake up, it's there...
when i travel to school, it's there....
and when i see those short replies....
guilt seems to drown me even more...
God, save me from this......
"The Lord is slow in anger and compassionate....."
