is just like any other day.......
just that today is Sunday...hehe.....
guess what!! pple praise me for saying Psalms105:1-6 in Chinese at the sanctuary during worship today...hehe...
cool right!! *claps*....WELL DONE MING HUI!!Ha ha........
this whole week was quite a mess....haha
my perlims started this week.......
had my Eng,SS,Chinese,Math1,Bio pps....haha
so far...its quite alright....(hope so!!)
haha....ytd was sisters' night!!!!!!!!
was quite surprise by the guys!!
really man!! i can tell you tt they were SUPERB!!!
haha....probably the girls r easier to be awwwwww......
but still good job guys!!
today suddenly thought of my ministry.......
feel that we've took a super long holiday!!
so long until some even went missing.........=(
maybe pple can come and tell me its my fault and it's okay.......
but it's hard for me to accept that fact!!
im tt kind of person who feels alot.....
i miss her!!
that girl always laughing out loud with me.......
really wish she's still walking strongly!!
i hope she's doing fine.....
GOD, PLEASE WATCH OVER HER EVERYDAY!!
anw.....it ended tonight.....it's true!!
from fairytale land back to reality.........
last words from me,
"I'm sorry for causing you this pain. I hope we're still friends! Are we?"
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
why don't you try and tone down and listen to my voice?
even if i tell you, would understand??
would you know?
the stress im facing in school-my teachers,the revisons that are lined up by my teachers,my aim to reach for my future for myself and my family when im not very good at my studies....
hey....i really am tryin my best to study......
even if its just 1 or 2 hours its also studying........
it is.....its just the way u put things....
i am a independant worker........
chicken essence and all that pills doesn't help to ease my stress.....
i need your understanding...........
i really need it in this point of time now......
it's not that i want to purposely talk back at you.....
i know you don't like it.....
it's just my character.....
because every time u say im not studying......
and that really pissed me off!!
i am studying really hard...
i cry in my own room sometimes because im scared tt i won't make it and i'll disappoint u again.....
i think of what i want to do in the future and you're included in my plans.....
do you know all these things??
do you??
why does this kindof things between me and you??
why??
i just want at nice chat with you everytime......
but u always become so sacrastic....
tt's when i get pissed off......
and talk back......
i hate it.....
i really hate it............
i miss 1999........
that was the time when i can really can go into your embrace to cry when im hurt....
i really miss those times where everyone is so close and happy together....
im sorry if i cause you so much pain.....
sorry....
i'll try to prove you that i can can make it this time round.....
my very best...........
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
im back again after so long!!haha.......
this whole week have been feeling really tired cause have been staying in school almost everyday till 9plus....really tired...but i guess it's worth it after all....
my English oral is in 2days.......I'm not prepared...seriously......
but i guess it'll still be fine........hope so...=)
toady is a Sunday...it started off with my accounts tuition.....
it's really taxing but i guess it went quite smoothly....=)
while i was having tuition...the whole world seems to be like hunting for me.....
probably because i din turn up for prayer meeting and Sunday class.....
haha...which is not what i would do.....
so when i got to church, people ask me if I'm alright.....
i am cause I'm able to make it in time for service.....
its really by GRACE and MERCY that i was standing in the worship hall, crying out to my Father......
a time where i really can put down all the different masks and come clean with Him...
really took back alot of things from what Wei Feng was sharing during sermon..
it really apply in my life right now...
FAITH is not measured by what by our status,knowledge etc.....
in fact, its by what we believed God has place in front of our pathway....
haha.....
then no just a few minutes ago.....my mum quarreled with me again over my studies AGAIN!!!
i think she's over-worried le!!
i think she still treat me as a 3year old girl who does not have my own aims, plans.....
she still thinks i can't manage my time my own....and she's always assumes that i'm not studying once she see me on the com!!
NO MAN!! when im on the com, this means that i need to do stuff for school/church.....
this does not mean i did not study......IT"S NOT TRUE!! NEVER!!!
i mean i do study...i don't have to study in front of her eyes....and studying doesn't mean you've to study 24hrs all day long....
i guess tt's her perspective of a good student
..........but its not........i hope.....
oh wells...........*face it Ming Hui*
okay....now that my Sunday night is bad....
i really hope the rest of the week will be smooth sailing......
have a feeling that the tension and mistrust between me and my mum will turn bad....
well....
I'll PRAY!!
i will........=D
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
i really dono what good am i in your eyes?
is the grades that i scored really determine how good i am to you?
shouldn't it be the values and attitude i should have instead....
do you know that reverse physcology does not work for me......
by comparing me with another person is not challenge for me to want to work harder...
in fact..it actually puts me down....
felt super sad when all of u ask me qns that i have to put my self down.....
i really don like the way ur 'grade' me....
everyday when i walk home at 9plus......
i hope to hear a "How was your day?"....
but what i get from you in nagging.....
asking me what i've studied...or did i study.....
of cause i did rite.......
my purpose of staying in school is to study.........
why don't you understand??
why????
and everytime i want to explain.....
you'll just start to blow up......
it's really irritating man!!
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
do you believe in angels in your life??
well..i do...
i do believe that God send people who are actually angels!haha....
what happen was on Sunday, i felt really down due to alot alot of problems.....
did not want to tell any1 as i really wanted to be left alone and jus emo my way out.....
however, God really send many angels to ask me how i was....
and these angel text me to give me encouragement....
one if these angles even came and talk to me...
although i said i din want to talk to any1...
i managed to throw out all my frustrations to this Angel......
i really felt so much better after crying it out man!!
after that day....i realize that there's still people who os still caring for me even though every1 seems busy with their own daily lives.....
THANK GOD!!
so what if studies is pulling me down??
so what if stress is dragging me down??
my Father is greater then all these problems that i am facing now.......
He said that we should all carry our cross and walk this path He planned for us.....
so i think all these things that im facing are things that's on that cross.....=)
today studied in school till 9plus....
really founf that night study in really good...
it somehow keeps me awake....
and i FINALLY started touching my history...
if you guys dono....i really suck at my history....
thank God...my history teacher is another angel who just popped into my life today and motivated me in doing well......
OH YA OH YA!!!
today was the release of chinese Olevel results.....
i've scared a B4...
was neither sad nor happy....just a bit dissapointed cause i expected a higher grade.....
im gonna re-take my chinese pp again!!.....
i won;t die if i re-take again....
who knows.....i'll gett a bettre grade!!=)
alright!!
gtg......=)
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
today is another day where i get irritated AGAIN!!
really don't know why.....
but i guess is the work that is piling up.....
prelims are in 20++days!!!
really scary though!!
and im having English O levels next week!!
time passes so so fast!!
and im getting my Chinese O level results..........
i feel lyk letting all these go and leave this country man!!
its too stressful here man!!
it's over the limit!!
but i guess its just for a few months to fight this battle!!
anw....today i had to do this Connect Singapore...
where 30,000 youths in Singapore surround Singapore's outline by connecting our hands together....
its also an event held by our President....
so we must wait for his signal to start reciting our pledge...
but in the end....the whole was a failure.....
this is because there's just too big a group to form this connection....
was under the hot sun for around 2-3 hours!!
hai..whatever!!!
tml is my church's walkaton!!
cant wait man!!
haha.......but still have to wake up super early...haha
while i guess its worth it....=)
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
this is a picture of me and some people in the foreground watching 'The Hulk'
alright...this is a picture taken at the pool, Jo,Me,Ling and Suz!!
okay now.....all of our faces looks weird because this 'guard ' stopped us from playing in the pool...=(
okay.....just playing with the effects!!
what a nice formation!!hehe
this picture is random...but just have a look at Jacob's face!!! haha
yea...the only guy in the middle is Leonard Chng, the Birthday Boy!!=)
had alot alot of fun ytd at Chng's 21at birthday party!!=)
was really crazy with some of the girls....
although i had tuition before the party,
it did not stop me from having fun!!haha
yup....but towards the end of the party.......
my mood suddenly from super high.....
went down to super low!!
when we were about to leave the place......
i was feeling quite irritated.....
as i was feeling very tired due to the craziness and the fact that i woke up 6.45am to go to school for x-tra lesson.........
i was kind of throwing tantrum.....
i guess every1 around me notice that and also kept a bit quit....
this is my first time throwing tantrum in front of my church friends....
haha....the hidden side of me!! heh heh....
then i got home and straight away went to slept after bathing...=)
today was serving as a drummer for NLW.......
don't know why these few days get really distracted by alot of things.....
so distracted that i couldn't focus throughout the whole service!!
i dono whether if people around me notice that...
but i just din feel like sharing with any1....
every1 seems really busy with their stuff.......
guess they won't have time for me.....
then next....i really have to say sorry for me acting like a crazy girl during the slacking time...
went crazy even for the least things.....
guess i was just making use of the last moments to enjoy myself before going home and going to school....yup.....
guess all the guys present was abit shocked by the 'highness' i had.....=)
but i can't be bothered with what they think of me...
well...that's how i release my stress...by having fun and laughing it out...
=).......
in about 9-10hrs time....
school will start again....=!
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
this is a picture of me and some people in the foreground watching 'The Hulk'
alright...this is a picture taken at the pool, Jo,Me,Ling and Suz!!
okay now.....all of our faces looks weird because this 'guard ' stopped us from playing in the pool...=(
okay.....just playing with the effects!!
what a nice formation!!hehe
this picture is random...but just have a look at Jacob's face!!! haha
yea...the only guy in the middle is Leonard Chng, the Birthday Boy!!=)