haha!!!
blogging again!!!
today was really bad...had super bad headache and had to da han through the whole day plus tow tests!!!
its really crappy........
feel that im gonna die anytime man!!
during the course of the week.......
Cynthia msg me and tell me im serving as a drummer this week for NLW......
just feel not prepared and also long long time never touch drums...
so my skills are also quite rusty........
but i thank God that i still can hold on to Him when everything around me seems crumbling down on me....
well tml will be another long long draggy day!!
hai.....
well sec4 life is like that....
i'll just accept the fact.....=)
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
this is MY SPASTIC FAMILY!!
okay....this is a photo on 3 SPASTIC SISTERS!! Ming, Jo and Ling!
alright....this photo is me and me alone!! hehe
hmmm.....this is me with the eldest spastic sis!! JI JI!
and this is taken with my 2nd spastic sis!! MEH JI!!
alright!! as you've seen all the photos up there!!
i can tell you what happen today...hehe
today is my confirmation....
an assurance of my faith with God...
and also the acceptance into the church!!
today... i've become a real women of God....
really feel good.....=)
but why izzit on such a wonderful day she must barge into my happiness and destroy it....?
why must she still treat me like a 3yr old kid??
i don't like it!! seriously!
i know things are really moving very slowly...
but at least its moving!!
why can't she see this point?? why??
i don't like to be treated like a small kid........
everything she must be worried, must poke her finger into my pie.....?
BOO!!!
i don't like!!
okay...whatever...I'm definitely not gonna destroy my wonderful day just because of this!!....=)
yup......today wrote a very impt letter!!
took me great courage to write this letter...
haha...it'll even be a greater challenge to pas it to that person!!
GOD....... HELP ME!!!
i have school tml...
as usual.......................................................
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
yay! today is a great day for me!! although it's quite tiring....but i kind of enjoyed it!!
today during cg...am very happy to see ppl start to open up and shared their inner feelings... it's great!!
and also very happy to see ppl who don't really have that much faith in God start to believe Him more!! yay!!
glad that every1 is growing together!! but it's also sad to see ppl starting to lose faith in themslves and in God!!
though i cant do much but to continue to encourage these ppl, i do feel very helpless cause i cant really do much... it's really up to them whether they know how to learn from the situations they are put under.....
though studies are piling up higher and higher....
i really want to tell alot of pple that it's at this time, we really need God's strength....
because it is only He who's standing strong....
suddenly feel that i've a lot of pple to talk them, to encourage them... to share with them what i've been thru.....
but i can't find tme... everyday's pact with stuffs....
todays was talking to alot of ppl....
caught up with quite alot of them.....
just realise that im really not alone for feeling the stress of Os....(of cause!!) all my friends are all suffering together with me....
really feel good that i could relate to alot of pple today!! YAY!! and tml will be my confrimation!!! it's so EXCITING!!!
really!!!!
it's lyk im getting married!! haha.....
i know the example is rather weird....
but i cant feel any other eg to express my feelings!! =D.......
hehe......
today one of my friends said that we should all
just laugh our problems away!!!
hehe....i think that's very easy for me to do!!haha...
and it's quite fun!!! =D
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
Yay!! it's been long since i've post!! haha.... this whole week of school is super taxing!! had quite a lot of tests this week... and have been under quite a bit of stress.... but my English teacher told us that sometimes stress keeps our minds going... so I'm really trying my best to cope this stress... today, my teacher gave us a form on our grad night!! upon receiving our forms, all of us was filled with excitement! the classroom was suddenly filled with buzz from all of us.... we were talking bout what we gonna do after grad night, where to shop for our dresses, who's house we're going to before grad night!!! so many things was being discussed.....=) but of cause, now all of us have to focus our minds i our studies first.... oh ya....on thrus, i had math lesson.... my math teacher she is really very stressful. This is because, once we get C or even just one of her tests, we'll have to do more work and of cause more pressure from her. so that day, what happened was she walked around my class to check who did not do the work she gave. there's this girl(won't mention her name), she didn't do... next thing you know is that teacher gave her a BIG lecture. however, this scolding also somehow impacted me too. my teacher describe the scene of the day when we receive our results. this is what she roughly said, "On that day, you'll be receiving your results in the hall with everyone. Once you get your results, if you did not do well, you wouldn't know how to react. And when your friends come and ask you how you fare, you would really feel ashamed to tell them your results and just feel like hiding into a hole. would you want that to happen to you?". although that was not for me, but i just feel that her words are really true.... and i don't know why at tt point of time, i really wanted to cry, looking at the situation i am in now. really had a lot thoughts that day. then toady is the first day i really look forward to a Chinese class. watched 'bu neng shou de mi mi' by Jay and a girl... it's really nice. one of the movies I'll remember forever.... really a great show bout a boy falling in love with a girl who traveled to his time from the past. and one fine day she had to travel back to the past. and the only way for the boy to travel back time is a piece of music score, and when he play it on an old piano, he can actually travel back time to reunite with her. in the end, the boy reunited with the girl and lived happily ever after. i really really love this kind of happy endings. maybe it's just me
LIVING IN MY FAIRYTALE LAND.
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
halo halo!!
its sat!!
yay!!
having fever now....
haven't really took my temp.....
but i guess i'll be fine somehow...
i seriously think that this fever i caused by the stress man!!
cos for me, i get fever when i am stressed....haha
this fever is also like a "life saver"!!
this is because i really think i need jsut a short time to rest before i continue walking....
today had wroship practice....
still remember this sentence that someone told me when i first led worship...
i was feeling nervous and afraid tt i won't be able to bring out the stuff that i want to...
it goes liddat....
"our best may not always measure up to the standard of others. but God takles ourinadequacies and humble efforts and uses them for His glory."
really felt encouraged then...
untill now i still feel very encouraged when i read iit again...=)
i really admit that this week i did not really walk closely with God due to my school work and stuff....
which lead me not prepared for the whole thing....
having fever is not a good feeling man!!
lucky tml not much stuff....=)
THANK GOD!!!
=D
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
updates!!
hair dropping on the floor.
not able to discharge stuff from inside your body.
all these signs are signs that show that you're stress!!
i have all these signs.
this proves that i am stress!!
have been really tied down due to work.
prelims are in 10weeks time!!!
oh no man!!
feeling scared though....
afraid that i won't be able to make it....
there's so so many things on my hand that i have to face it...
but somehow i dono why i am not facing all these problems....
feeling crappy!!
man!!!
have been living my days like a routine!!
and i don't like it!
seriously man!!
everyday is just wake up, brush teeth, go to school, having lessons, have remedial after school, go home, have dinner, do homework, do revision, sleep!!!
that's it.........
that's it!!!
im living my days like that!!!
so.....NOT MY LIFE!!!!!!
MING HUI OFFICIALLY HAVE NO LIFE!!!!
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
cause i had a bad day!!
today is the worst day of my life!!
i really hate it when things get way out of my control.....
today, i received the staying back in school untill 5pm everyday schedule!!
it's wircked sick man!!!
was super stressed the whole.....
then tlking bout my art!!!
it's CRAZY man!!
everyone is pushing me to do stuff......
i don;t like it....but i still have to do it.....
and to produse good good results out of it....
everything seems so so crappy to me now!!
EVRYTHING MAN!!!
hate the stress i'm facing right now!!
it's just a feww months away from Os!!
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT??
last when i was still in sec1, i thought Os is still very far away from me....
but now... Os is just infront of my eyes!!
OH MY GOSH!!!
so much for "thank God it's friday!"!!
i know i should do the things i shoukd do....
and say the things that sounds more mature then just grumbling my life away....
but this time round....
i really just feel like complaining all the way man!!!
i'm feeling carzy right man!!
have been getting emo super easily.....
will get irritated very easily too.....
i hate this too man!!
i really just hope that tomorrow will be a better day for me!!
=)
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
No stress, No stress, No stress!!
As days pass me one by one,
My days for O levels are shortened.
things have been getting way out of my control.
revisions and work are piling up!!
i heard that the rest of the weeks i've to stay in school till super late...
well i guess u should know the reason why...=)
STUDY OF CAUSE!!!
haha.....every week has different subject!!
but i thank God that i see some improvements in my math!!
yay!! that's the only thing that i can be happy of....hehe......
seriously man!!
but again.....
my friends are also very very impt to me!!
they play a special role in my life!!
when im feeling moody, they'll be the ones who can lift my spirit up!!
they'll be talking about stupid things which makes me laugh untill i can break into peices...!!
hahahahaha........
although school life is super difficult for me,
i'm glad have have u guys there for me!!!
I LOVE MY CLASS!!!
WILL MISS YOU WHEN I LEAVE THIS SCHOOL!!
=(
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
today was my slackest day!!haha....wad i did was just taking care of my three cousins cause my mu went out with my aunties...although it seems very slack....i really had fun with them....i feel really good when im taking care of small kids....just feel i can really play and have fun with them but at the same time making them listen to me!!rocks man!!!tml going to sch already...maybe because today i slack too much don really have that 'hardworking' feeling...haha.....oh well i guess it'll be fine....can't wait for this sat!!we're gonna have SUNBURN!!!...cant wait to be burnt again!!just kidding!!i just hope my fren would come...really hope so...........please pray for me and my fren!!=)
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
Bye Mr. Why!!!
hey guess wad!!! in just one whole day....all the whys and question marks were resolved!! Isn't that great? =) pastor Chua said today during confirmation class today that we teenagers should and it's alright for us to go thru hardships... this is because once we know how the pain feels like and how we can solve the problem.... we'll then learn somethings from there... and he also made me realize that even though my so called 'pain' is making me feel so worried and sad.....my Father is still carrying me on His shoulders and walking down this pathway with me....all my complicated problems is nothing compared to the pain and sufferings that my Father went through when He died on the cross for our sins.... ans also no matter how hard i try to find out the answers for all the whys in my head..... i can never find it because after all, what i've to go through is also what God have in place for me...=) now that i finally understand.....i feel so light/free.. i feel that i can smile even to the pple to think i should not.... he he....thank Him for making my day a better day man!!ha ha anw...after church....was slacking in church... Shaun is crazy!!! he created a song just meant for me.. u might think its very nice of him.... but let me briefly tell what the lyrics of this song... "MINGHUI! she so black" ---> that's the first verse in the song!! "so black until she look like a crow." ---->that's the second verse of the song.... haha...now can u understand how irritated i was feeling then... haha...but i do know that all these was just jokes and he was just having fun...hehe then after slacking...went for dinner with them... WHAO!!! its been a super long long time since i've followed them for dinner...hehe..felt happy!!haha...then after that had s gathering with the girls!!woohoo!!!its been super super long since i've gathered with them and catching up with them!!! so happy today!!.jpg)
HAPPY YOUTH DAY!!
=D
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
Mr. Why came into my day today!!
6/7/2008 is not a very good day for me!!
i really want to say that i hate today!!!
i hate it! i hate it!
grrrrr.....
1stly, today is a Saturday.
a day where everyone take break and do what we want to.
but i had to go back to school do my art.
then i had math tuition.
was not so effective for me cause my brain was practically dead.
yup...so i could not concentrate.
actually i had prayer meeting to attend to. but because if tuition, i was not able to go.
i really do hope that God will not be angry with me cause i did not go for so many prayer meetings.
i did not want this to happen to me either.
i had no other choices!
and because i was left alone today....
i did a lot of thinking today...
thought bout my studies,where i went wrong and what else i can do.
thought bout my family, where i had gone wrong and what i can do to be even better.
thought bout my ministry, where i did badly and how i can improve the current situation.
thought bout my relationship with friends, where i did badly and not being thoughtful and understanding and how can i do to improve all my relationships.
thought bout my cow, whether we did wrong or whether was it a rash decision and what can i do to solve the problem.
all these thoughts are really making more and more confuse.
did i really do something wrong?
did i really make the wrong move at the beginning?
are all the thoughts coming from God all am i just thinking too much?
and what if history repeats itself again?
will it be a good one?
or bad?
what if things really don't go my way?
what if things gets way off from what we looked forward to?
what if everything crumbles down??
why must MINGHUI think so much always?
why?
why?
why?
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
today I'm gonna tell a very simple story of this princess!!
There once lived a very pretty princess called Sheena.
Princess Sheena was well-respected by all the people living in her country.
One day, her father (which is the King) was thinking of marrying her daughter off to a good man as Sheena has reached a marriageable age.
But, the one and only problem was that the King could not find a suitable prince for Sheena.
the king open up competitions for young men through the whole country to compete with each other.
and of cause the winner will get to marry Princess Sheena.
Although Sheena was not very happy with this plan, she still have to obey because girls/women at the century did not have much status.
One fine day, Princess Sheena and her cousins were in the garden playing some ball games.
but one of the cousins did not manage to grab hold of the ball therefore it fell into a well.
they tried to get the ball out of the well but they failed.
Suddenly, Sheena had a small voice calling out for her .
she looked everywhere but could not see a single soul.
"Down here! Down here!", the voice called out.
when Sheena looked down, she saw a ugly looking toad.
"you looked troubled, Princess. Are you alright?", the toad ask.
then Sheena told the toad all about the ball game and them failing to get the ball out.
"i can help you!", the replied excitedly!
"But how? You're just a toad! You can't do anything." Princess Sheena said.
"Yes, i have a way." the toad replied.
"Alright then. tell me your plan.", Sheena said.
"You've to kiss me. And on my lips. And I'll help you to get the ball out of the well.", the toad proclaimed.
Although it sounded a bit disgusting, the princess had to agree because all her cousins wanted the ball back.
so the toad was happy that the princess agreed to his terms and went down into the well to get the ball out.
"here you go! now return me my kiss,", said the toad demandingly.
"actually, i was just joking about the kiss." said Sheena, walking off as quick as lighting to back out.
the toad was furious. so he went to tell this incident to the king.
the king wanted the princess to keep her promise to the toad to set a good image as a princess.
so Sheena kissed the toad on the lips unwillingly.
All of a sudden, the toad transformed into a handsome prince.
everyone who was in the room was shocked.
the prince slowly explained the whole story line to everyone.
the reason why he was turned into a toad was because his evil stepmother wanted to take full control over his country.
the only way for him to turn into a human was to receive a kiss from a princess on the lips.
now then the princess finally understand what is true love at first sight.
the king was really happy as her daughter has finally found her true love.
so they got married and live happily ever after.
THE END. =)
the reason why i put this story here was because i learn something in this story!
although some things in my life eg: stress from O levels may look very 'ugly' as the toad, but who knows?
with just a 'kiss' eg: handwork can change a bad, ugly ending to a happy ever after ending!!
YAY!!!
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
just another wonderful day where i can take a short break to post my blog....
felt super tired.... have been working/studyin since morning 7.30am all the way till 8pm!!!
hai.... had my math test today. i can say its quite alrite....
but of cause i do have sums that i can't do...
well...another happy thing is that i do not have physic test today!!! =)
my teacher did not come today.....
hehe..... but still i do feel super tired....
just feel that sometimes we as students are facing the worst stress ever!!
although some of you out there are like working or wadever....
and i know that your really miss/love your secondary sch life....
i do love my life now...
it's jus that i feel we as students ahve too much pressure from everywhere...
like stress/pressure from parents...have to get wadever results to make them happy....
den it'll come from sch...like sch frens....having to fight this WAR with all of them....
sometimes i really do feel that i'm really lacking behind....
it's NUTS man!!!
but still.... i thank God that this whole week until now, i have been able to walk closely wif Him...
i think that's even more impt then doing all my homework and other stuff....
yup.... that's all for now....
=p
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
Alrite... its been quite awhile since i post again le...haha...
anw...school have been okay for me....
jus that i'm having my chinese Olevels oral soon!!! in 2 days time!!! feeling very scared because the topics for each day are seriously getting harder and harder!!!
NO!!!! this can't be!!!
SERIOUS STUFF MAN!!! NO JOKE MAN!!!
and my friends who had orals before me had really crappy teacher!!!
that teacher can actually fall alsleep and use her phone during the oral itself!!
super nonsense la!!!
i really hope i would get a great teacher, a teacher that will not make me feel nervous, but make me feel more confident!!
On top of that, this oral is chinese!!
if you do not know, my chinese is not really that good.
hope everything will be fine!! =)
anyway, having math and physic test tml!!
i really set down and think thru what i want to achieve at the end...
i've set my mind in getting what i want (don tell what i've set)
but its something good!
haha....... guess with great perseverance, resutls will come!! =)
and also, there're many pple/frens around me who are constantly pushing me thru!
although some of them are there just me make me LOL...
they're really the pple who really make my everyday a better day to live!!
THANK GOD FOR THEM!!!
thru Him, everything is made perfect in my eyes!!
and recently have been talking to a fren i've not been talking for very long!!
feel really good to get back wif old frens.... +)
anw....things between a cow have tide down and went back to old days already....
i just hope everything will be great!!
because i won't be able to cope everything in my own hands.... =)
alrite.... got to get back to my nerdy moments...
have to study for tml tests!!
thanks for reading...yea!!!
=D
when you're striving for the up slope,
remember to take time to breathe at the down slope.
this is MY SPASTIC FAMILY!!
okay....this is a photo on 3 SPASTIC SISTERS!! Ming, Jo and Ling!
alright....this photo is me and me alone!! hehe
hmmm.....this is me with the eldest spastic sis!! JI JI!
and this is taken with my 2nd spastic sis!! MEH JI!!
Yay!! it's been long since i've post!! haha.... this whole week of school is super taxing!! had quite a lot of tests this week... and have been under quite a bit of stress.... but my English teacher told us that sometimes stress keeps our minds going... so I'm really trying my best to cope this stress... today, my teacher gave us a form on our grad night!! upon receiving our forms, all of us was filled with excitement! the classroom was suddenly filled with buzz from all of us.... we were talking bout what we gonna do after grad night, where to shop for our dresses, who's house we're going to before grad night!!! so many things was being discussed.....=) but of cause, now all of us have to focus our minds i our studies first.... oh ya....on thrus, i had math lesson.... my math teacher she is really very stressful. This is because, once we get C or even just one of her tests, we'll have to do more work and of cause more pressure from her. so that day, what happened was she walked around my class to check who did not do the work she gave. there's this girl(won't mention her name), she didn't do... next thing you know is that teacher gave her a BIG lecture. however, this scolding also somehow impacted me too. my teacher describe the scene of the day when we receive our results. this is what she roughly said, "On that day, you'll be receiving your results in the hall with everyone. Once you get your results, if you did not do well, you wouldn't know how to react. And when your friends come and ask you how you fare, you would really feel ashamed to tell them your results and just feel like hiding into a hole. would you want that to happen to you?". although that was not for me, but i just feel that her words are really true.... and i don't know why at tt point of time, i really wanted to cry, looking at the situation i am in now. really had a lot thoughts that day. then toady is the first day i really look forward to a Chinese class. watched 'bu neng shou de mi mi' by Jay and a girl... it's really nice. one of the movies I'll remember forever.... really a great show bout a boy falling in love with a girl who traveled to his time from the past. and one fine day she had to travel back to the past. and the only way for the boy to travel back time is a piece of music score, and when he play it on an old piano, he can actually travel back time to reunite with her. in the end, the boy reunited with the girl and lived happily ever after. i really really love this kind of happy endings. maybe it's just me
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