i had leaders retreat!! it's one retreat that brought me back back to what i was suppose to fulfill in the ministry. there's a period of time where i was too busy due to studies and neglected my role. You send people to guide me, to help me, yet i took granted of that and did not use the things that they've given to me to my fullest potential. now, i realize my mistake, that because i went into the sleeping mode, the people under me also went into sleeping mode and some even lost the passion do this for You.
I'm really sorry. now that it's left with 4 more months till i step down, i know i've to do something. because i remember that someone once told me that it is us to build this ministry up. or else no one will. its a great responsibility to hold as a ministry leader and a Olevel student at the same time. at first when i was told to hold this responsibility, i really questioned myself whether I'm actually up to this task. but after walking through almost 3/4 of this year, i really wanna say a big THANK YOU to my God.
this is because its is He who bought me through all my tests, exams, school activities,church activities etc. really amazing how fast time flies. ya man.....it's now or never!! the vision, the humble heart, the discipline, the encouragements.........
GO MING!!!
yup! and today during the retreat, i saw all the happy faces and i was happy because everyone was happy!!! OMG!! all credits to KENDRA!! your game rocks man!!! we should play that sometime again with the rest of the people!!! man!! I'm excited!! =D
when i reach, she gave me black face again. because i went out the whole and not studying....blah blah blah. i tired to explain to her the reason why I'm back home so late. she couldn't be bothered to listen. i got quite pissed off but i did not say anything. just went to have a nice cooling shower. guess it helped me to cool down. its 4 more days to my day, why can't she just step back abit to let me be happy?? oh bother! then what's the use of planning how/when/where to celebrate my day when we are having difficulty in just listening to each other?? it's totally no use. oh! what a birthday that I'm looking forward man!
yea. I'm suppose to be back to my school mode. however, I'm feeling VERY lazy to change to that mood right now. honestly, i really don't feel like going to school tomorrow. but i already told my mum that there'll be lesson tml, for her character, she won't allow me to skip it. oh wells.
Olevels it's just in month time i guess. seriously, when i just say this word 'Olevel', it really gives me freaks!! it'll cause me to feel giddy, makes me feel like that my hair will drop out anytime. MAN!! this is not a good feeling!! i don't like to be freaked out!! its Os man!! at this point of time, i really envy those smart people. although they also get the same feeling as me, but at least they have this assurance that they're smart enough to at least get A2 for each subj. well for me, I'm not talented in my studies. so i've to face my mum,teachers and even friends everywhere!! this is considered stress to me man!! BOO!!! stress!! i dislike you!!!
but there's one assurance that i know i always have in me. i have my Father guiding me in whatever i do. i know through Him, all things that seems impossible to me IS possible!! He can part the Red sea!! what else can He not do??
alright man!!
I'm burning for Him!!
3 more days!!
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