for this post i really don what should i post.....
there's just too many things happen at one go....
just in one day...so many things can happen....
why must i being placed in this situation where i feel helpless...
i know i've to obey the rules that the Word writes....
but at the same time i don feel like.....
its so difficult....
i feel like just givning up everything and just fly to Mars and live alone myself...
would rather have a problem-free life then having to care bout so much things...
probably i just do the wrong things tooo many times....
i think i've hurt a person too many times in my life already...
that particular person whom i love dearly place so much hope in me...
and believed me so much....
but i did so many things that hurt that person's heaRT...
im kindof confused...
why am i always in this kindof situation....
i feel like im stuck in an island myself...dono what is the next thing i should do....
i feel alone...i feel helpless...haha
i feel bad....i feel disappointed towards myself.......
haha...sounds funny though....
i really feel i should do the things that the person is asking me to do....
but.....but i jus cant bring myself to do it.....
ARGH!!!!!
i feel like doing to Ireland...
that place is full of large mountains, big patches of grass, many wild pretty flowers...
feel like just going there and shout at the top of my voice....
i want to live there for the rest of my life.....(although there's no TV there...)
so peaceful and calm...
this world that i live in is just too complicated....
so complicated that sometimes you'll do things that is wrong and might hurt people badly....
i want to live a simple life....simple and peaceful.....
actually this problem is very simple...but that person thinks too complicatedly.....
but nonetheless....it's still my job to listen and obey....
