hey...todday is a bad day.......
why won't she understand me better??why??
why does she always think i am bad??
am i really that bad??
am i really wad she think i am??
am i really bad just because i am cold to her???
why?
why?
why?
why cant i treat her like how she want me to??
i thought i am doing a godd job......
but why???
why doesn't she care???
why is she complaining about everything i do??
ARGH!!!!
i hate it!!!HONESTLY!!!
why must it turn out so badly??
am i really a bad girl??
im really trying to do well in every part of my life....
trying my best to do well in my studies,as everything!!!
why?????
i cry alone in the dark....does she know??
when will this ecer end???
what if one day she's gone??
although i know im doing a bad job in her eyes....but i still do love her alot!!!
why don't she get it???
why?why?why?
ARH!!!!
does it take time to heal this wound??
why is she compairing me to all my cousins??
i know they're good and whatsoever....
but i have my own good points too!!
im not a peice of scum living in this world okay!!!
this is really affecting me!!!
i don wan it like that!!!
ARGH!!!!
i really really hope i can step into a time machine to travel back in time to 1994!!
when im 2yrs old...everything looks perfect.....
when all my family members are still around....
where my life looks so sweet.......
how can i get back in time??
i really want!!!
but i know in real life there's nothing like this...
i guess i jus have to clear up this mess myself...........
OH SO ALONE!!!!
